Conundrum [kuh-nuhn-druhm] –noun
1. a riddle, the answer to which involves a pun or play on words, as What is black and white and read all over? A newspaper.
2. anything that puzzles.
I generally make effort to keep my blogging life separate from my love life – in the sense that, as a rule, I don’t write about current relationship situations (though you get all the stories later), and I don’t usually encourage my current interests to read my blog. In fact, I have found that it’s all around easier if they don’t. Despite my no-current-relationship-blogging rule, the men I date tend to be unsettled at the idea that I blog about relationship experiences at all, and its just better for all involved that they don’t read the horror stories held within – at least not until the relationship is over. (Though, off hand, the only ex I can think of that I know reads my posts is NE, the ex-fiance).
Regardless, I have learned in my life that it is sometimes a good idea to break the rules. And I plan on breaking one – right now.
I am currently seeing a guy.
Yes. I said currently.
This particular guy has found and read – or so I very strongly believe – this very blog.
This particular gentleman has also given me a bit of a run for my money, to be entirely honest, and I seem to be at a loss for words when it comes to him and our interactions. For those of you who know me well, you know that I am not often at a loss for words. In fact, I am never at a loss for words. He has been nothing short of surprising – puzzling, dare I say, for the short time that I have known him – he seems to be entirely well adjusted, well spoken, talented, smells good … and is not intimidated by me in the slightest.
I am quite used to having some form of upper hand – no offense if you’re reading this and you’ve been with me – and some level of control. That’s not to say that I think I’m better than anyone, just to say that I am generally in control and have mastered the art of making people need me – or, on the other hand, I tend to attract people who need me (or just have a tendency to need another person in general).
I’m not sure I know how to handle not being in that position, yet I’m thrilled at the thought of finally being challenged. I said I wanted a guy who would stand toe-to-toe with me, and I may have found my match.
I’m not going to go into the ins and outs of the current – I’m not 100% comfortable with breaking this rule in its entirety, but I don’t back down from a challenge, even when I’m quite a bit out of my element …
Him: You know the curious thing about dating a blogger – a blog-ette, if you will?
Him: I can’t help but wonder how much of all of this you’re just cataloging away for later use. And how you would convey all of this in writing.
Me: Haha .. well, of course I am! As an artist, I’m naturally observant. And as a writer, even more so. But I never write about the current interactions …
Him: You don’t even know what to do with me .. I can just imagine a new post called ‘the conundrum’ …